missing you

tomorrow marks the 2nd year anniversary of your death....The amount of joy you brought into the lives of friends and family around you was too great to imagine...and I wish that you could have seen that before taking the final steps towards the ending of your life...I find myself in a new light with all of this...It's no longer the deep grief, guilt or mourning that i'm feeling but just a rememberance of your life and appreciation of everything you gave us while you were here, I will be wearing the green ribbon where ever i go for the next few days..but you...I will always carry your memory in my heart for as long as I live. I miss you but can still feel you guiding and watching over me. I will make a toast tonight to your life as well as Justin's and to T and E for picking me up and moving me on....the biggest lesson you taught me....is to live life in the best and most loving way...and even though that seems a bit ironic in that you eventaully took your life, your heart always spoke that lesson to me..and now, all that has come to pass, I can finally feel as though I'm actaully living life instead of watching it... Rest in Peace, my friend
In memory of Matt Crick
(November 4th, 1987 - February 27, 2007)