the path less taken

i've always traversed and stuMbled upon the roads and paths less taken...and not always by choice. I find myself here, cold, alone..feeling abandonned, rejected, as i always am in the end..and i never know how i get here...and honestly don't know how much more i can meander down these paths...I'm a gentle soul...and the only thing i ever want out of life...is to love...and be loved in return...but when everything forces you out of that you start to believe that for some reason you are unloveable...maybe that sounds radical or completely insane....but i don't know what to think anymore...so much is going unsaid...i'm so confused.....and this is not me...this is not who i was on the path to be...and i can't fucking break free of it...i sink night after night farther and farther hoping someone...anyone...especially you...would notice...and say hey...maybe he does need me right now...but i can't expect that...it's not fair to you...i need to suck it up and deal with these demons on my own...because i'm fabricating things in my head....and believein my self-made delusions of desertion....when really...things are probably just at a rough spot....and will smooth out eventually...what i need...is to trust my dreams....that i still have...you know...about all of us...walking arm in arm down a road...watching as the world comes to an end...through storm and destruction....we will still be left...standing strong.....don't you guys miss those days...when we were a group....a single unit....the strength we had...the bond we had.....where exactly did that go???i miss that....