falling

.....Once again I found myself falling asleep in your arms last night and I know that I'm really falling for you...I knew right away but more so when I caught myself smiling randomly..I can feel it with each gentle, passionate kiss and every time you take my hand in yours...The way my heart races when you are near me...and I realize that when with you nothing else matters and this nightmare I've been living seems to slowly fade away..and this morning...what can I say about this morning...The beautiful scene of a morning twilight casting the room in blue and just you in silohouette...I just laid there awake, observing, taking in every detail to saturate the formation of a memory to think of when skies are grey and the world seems to crumble...as the twilight gave way to the first rays of a glorious sunrise, a light spread slowly revealing your peacful, sleeping face dusted with a slight smile that warmed and calmed me...I took in every detail of your body to try and force a memory of each to form in my mind...your copper red hair....your soft skin painted in freckles....the comfort of holding you so close....I spent the night at my parents' house, away from everything, just to be in a quiet room; scared that any interaction right now with anyone would chase these memmories from my head...and this time the silence did not overwhelm...did not strike me down...did not silence me....but only paved the way to realize that a healing process is starting once again...and it's so soon...we just met..I did not anticipate this; did not expect this...but your energy feels so familiar to me...and so comforting......i can't wait and am looking forward to our next meeting...thank you for all you've done without trying....I find myself smiling more lately...It's been a while.....