no words

there are no words t describe the feeling i'm experiencing....i have never been so satisfied and greatful with who i am and where i am in life until this point....and it took friends finding friends to wake me the fuck up out of this hibernation i've been in for too many years....and i could never be more greatful....tonight was ridiculous....and amazing...and "cheesey"....and i need to go to bed...blog tomorrow, savor the moment...and even if i had a few cigarettes i don't feel guilty in that i know that i won't desire them tomorrow.....and that is an amazing thing all in itself...the moon was so briliant tonight....have you ever been taken back by a live image???i was in sensory overload on the way home....the warmth outside....the music i was balrring and singing to...and the outside imagewith the white chocolate moon hanging in a foggy yet clear sky.....almost reduced me to tears....for as much as i am a child of the light.....it really is the moonlight that guides me....it represents the duality of life...in that there are such dark horizons present yet there is always that one brilliant and miraculous light in the ark to lead you back home....a darklight....it is how i ground...because one can not be anything but grounded when looking up at a scene of beauty in the night sky....to observe from a distance brings it closer to the heart...to fly up and touch it take the wonder away....so to stay earthbound; touching it with only the mind and imagination can make one soar above and remain firmly planted to this world while all the energy of the universe courses through their veins at the same time.....all you need is to stretch your conciousness from ground to sky...and you will see what i mean...sleep time is beckoning...more tomorrow..goodnight to t,e, and c...you guys have found things in me and brought them out; things i htought were long lost....i love you guys.....may the sweetest dreams come to you