speachless

and i'm speachless...eyes watery....for i can't express what that just meant to me.....i'm going for a walk or a drive to think....and i'm crying...because i so absolutely appreciate beautiful and meaningful things when they are done for me...i ever ask for much....i don't need much....so when things happen or are wrtten i really and absolutely appreciate them....thank you for that beautifulness you painted on your blog....you always have a knack for making me feel that no matter what....things wil somehow be ok...even when at times they feel everything but.....i really can't wait until we finally live together....no more nights i na dim room where thoughts are all i have whether i want them in my head or not.....and even if everyone is sleeping i know that i will be able to feel the energies from you and e to help guide me through the night.....and in all honesty i really feel this inherant loneliness that builds up inside my soul is partially from a past life......i know something happened....and i do know that without love my life is meaningless....and like i said i can get by on my own....but i can't explain it....it's just this deep deep pit inside me that really has been there for as long as i can remember....i dunno i have a lot of crazy thoughts on the subject....we should chat about crazy thoughts soemtime!!! haha and fingerpanting....sounds absolutely needed in our daily lives...thank you for moving me to the point of tears....and for really showing me that i'm not alone... :o)